I am decomposing.

[The video above is rated R for blood, violence (towards germs) and mature content (hairy leg)]

Oh yes, I am. Just see what the holidays have done to my right leg.

Well, it suddenly got infected last week and every day I have to extract pus from the wounds. It's really painful, not to mention disgusting. Although I don't really know the cause of it, I am guessing a really dirty mosquito bit me while I was sleeping and I must have scratched the bitten area like Wolverine gone mad. The germs and bacteria probably moved in for a little vacation in the wounds after that.

I am currently taking antibiotics and cleaning the wounds with disinfectants on a daily basis. The swelling has reduced a lot, thanks to my exceptional pus extraction skills.

Well, it's not really my holidays yet. Honestly, I have 2 more weeks of college. But I think it will be a waste of time; I might as well look for a job. In fact, I have already submitted my resume to a company willing to employ one-month-workers. It's a data entry job. =) Sounds boring, but I guess it's better than working as a waiter.

Oh, and recently I tried playing Plants vs. Zombies. It is a DRUG! At first, I thought the title sounded silly and didn't bother to download it. Since I am gonna rot at home for some time, I thought I might as well do something to kill time. And boy, the game was created to do just that. I highly recommend it for people who seriously have nothing better to do. =)



KJ.
L.O.L

White flag.

Almost everyone who knew told me the same thing-that I should just give up. Some tried to encourage me but they knew I was digging my own grave. Well, now I realise ... I've dug about 5 and a 1/2 feet below ground.

I am a rather stubborn person. I usually won't give up until I get the real taste of what I'm getting myself into. Even after you left me, avoided me, disappointed me, and found someone better, I didn't give up. My feelings for you just kept growing stronger and stronger. I've never thought the world of someone like that, not to such an extent. When I close my eyes, you are there. When I am alone, you are there. When I am dreaming, you are there. You're everywhere to me.

or rather ... WAS

because I am not going to think about you anymore. I am not going to make any attempts to win your heart back. I am giving up.

BUT

I want you to know that I will never blame you for hurting me. I know how you feel. I know what you want. I know I am just not good enough for you.

I really love you so deeply. I think I am lucky to have met such a beautiful person like you. I tried to change myself just to meet your expectations. But it's all too late now. I know I am nothing more than a fool to you. If that is where I stand, I guess it's better for me to let go. I don't wanna continue hurting myself and annoying you.

But, whatever happens, I hope we are still friends. I don't think making mistakes in a relationship should be punished by completely severing the bond between us. I hope I can finally meet you again one day.

Lastly, thank you for appearing in my life. You brought me happiness and love like I've never felt before. You changed me so much I think I am a better man now. As for the pain and sorrow, they were necessary to engrave in my heart the happier times we once had together. I want to remember them. I will never forget you, my first true love.

P.S. Wait for me to finish digging the last 1/2 feet. My feelings for you will die together with that.

KJ.
L.O.L

Things You Didn't Know About KJ.

Well, recently I've got nothing much to write about. Nothing really special happened. So I've decided to post up some interesting facts about me =). I think it would be fun if I continue to write similar posts in the future and concentrate on some specific topics.

Let's start with some random facts.

1. I can move my eyebrows up and down, very fast.
2. My weight has been constant at 56kg for almost 4 years now. Just when I thought I've gained 2kg of weight when I measured it on the weighing machine recently, I realised the reading had to be corrected for a zero error. I still end up at 56kg.
   
3. Some say I don't have a butt. =/
   
4. I am not photogenic.
5. I actually thought my voice was sexy. However, after listening to a recording of it, I think I sound more like a cow.
6. I drink a lot of water to keep my lips moist.
7. I almost always have my big water bottle with me wherever I go.
   
8. I've been having pimples since I was 10. I don't get permanent scars from popping them though.
   
9. I can spike up my hair just by using water. It can actually stand throughout the whole day.
10. I have to visit the toilet frequently due to the amount of water I drink.
11. I love science.
12. I only created a Facebook account this year.
13. I drank my first can of beer this year. They don't taste good at all. I prefer Shandy.
14. I love cars.
15. Some say I walk like a gangster or a gorilla. I don't notice anything wrong with the way I walk.
    

There you go! Some random stuff you didn't know about me. On the next 'Things You Didn't Know About KJ' post, I guess I will talk about swimming!

KJ.
L.O.L

R.I.P Incognito.

I deleted Incognito. It was more like an accident, like 'Oops, I pushed the button'. Oh well, to hell with them emo posts! =)

Yeah, some of you might have read my latest post which I've just written yesterday. Just thought I need to let my heart out for a while but I'm fine now. Can you forget about it, please? Thank you. =)

Now let's ... L.O.L!

Right, today's mooncake festival (yesterday actually-it's past 12). Not surprisingly, I did nothing. I went to my usual Cambridge English class in the afternoon and when I returned, I watched quite a few nice movies on HBO. It's been ages since I last watched proper TV. I took a break from Discovery Channel and watched 13 going on 30 and No Reservations. =)

Kinda like movies for girls, eh? *AHEM* I watched them anyway. Both movies' plot and story were good and ... Jennifer Garner was hot. Worth watching. =)

I went swimming too. As usual, ALONE. Imagine having the whole Olympic sized pool to yourself. Kinda cool, eh? Not really. My mind tend to wander off. I think of both happy and sad times, present, past and future and many, many things. I guess it's the only activity which gives me ample time and space for reflection, provided that there are no bikini-clad girls going in the pool, which only happens on very rare occasions.

That's all I've done today (er..yesterday). Tomorrow, I'm gonna learn breakdance with a friend from my Cambridge English course. Yes, told you I'm serious about dancing =). We're gonna celebrate mooncake festival too. Wrong occasion, but nevermind, we just wanna play with fire.

Alright, happy mooncake festival to all of you.

KJ.
L.O.L

WKE 6683.

Well, the damage done to my car wasn't a big deal. I don't think the repairs will cost much either. I might probably just leave it there - scars are sexy.

Time for some story-telling.

One beautiful night, I just picked up a friend in Kepong and was about to meet up with another at Bandar Sri Damansara. After I exited Maluri, I began to switch to the BSD lanes. When I've successfully switched to L3 (my entire car was in the lane), it only took a matter of seconds for the Sonata to hit me. It just popped out of nowhere. I'm guessing he didn't see me because I was in his blind spot. But he made a very, very fast turn and I couldn't brake in time. He even accelerated despite knowing that he hit me - I could see sparks or something like paint flying off my front right side. I was utterly stunned! It felt as though my car was heavily damaged.

So I flashed him with high beam and gave him a signal to pull over. We stopped somewhere in Aman Puri, away from busy traffic. The first thing I said to the driver when I stepped out of my car was "I want to settle this in a nice way". He was a middle aged 'cina apek'. He didn't seem to bother and went on to check the damage on my car first (knowing he was guilty). His car didn't seem to have any visible damage =/.

So I explained the situation and I told him his sudden turn caused the accident. He said I was wrong for switching into his lane. WHAT THE HELL? He came from L4! He said it was HIS lane and he didn't want me to switch into his lane. What kinda excuse is that!? Well, then perhaps he was initially at L3 but switched to L4 just when I entered L3 to overtake me (plausible).

It was obviously his mistake, whether he didn't see my car because I was in his blind spot or he wanted to overtake me to 'get his lane back'. I told him that and I asked for compensation for the repairs. He came up close to me and said "PAY YOUR 67 AR PAY!? ..!.. " (translate directly to Cantonese and yes...he showed the middle finger at my face) and pushed me. He pushed my friend too when she tried to explain. I pulled him away and pushed him hard. I shouted at him and said "I came down here to negotiate in a nice way, not to let you DIU DIU DIU. You want to DIU , we talk at the police station". His mouth smelled like alcohol when he talked to me. He threatened to run me over and also asked for a fight. He was very drunk.

*Cut short*

We didn't make it to the police station. He just kept DIU-ing and then got into his car and took off. I got into my car and floored the accelerator pedal. We chased him. He made a U-turn, I drifted through it at high speed =0. I DRIFTED! Guess all that adrenaline can really make us do things we've never done before. Anyway, he made it to the main roads and we lost him in a sea of cars.

Well, we went to the Kepong police station to make a report. They told us we had to go to the Kota Damansara branch because the accident site is in Selangor =/ ("efficient"). I didn't bother to do it. It was just minor damage after all.

If I happen to see his car again next time, I'll just give it a little BIG scratch. If he is in it, I will just show him ..!..

Well, this is why road rages always happen in Malaysia. With irresponsible drivers like that, even a proper negotiation can end up in a fight. So, please Malaysian drivers, talk nicely. Everything can be settled in a nice way. There is no need to DIU others. It just makes things worse

AND ...

please think of a better excuse if you don't wanna admit it was your fault. No such thing as "my lane". Your father didn't buy it.

KJ.
L.O.L

Live Our Lives.

Welcome to Live Our Lives (L.O.L) =)

As mentioned in my last post in Incognito, I need a new blog. And here it is!
It has a comprehensible title, more positive =) and perhaps my biggest effort in Photoshop. I created this blog from scratch and designed the title picture. Phew, all that hard work. Well, it may not be beautiful but I guess you'll say it's better than the one in the previous blog (with all those alien symbols).

So, why the fancy blog title?

Well, that's because I think all of us should live our lives to the fullest. Let bygones be bygones and live to pursuit our dreams. I've wasted a long period of time finding my direction in life and now I think I've almost found it. I will now set off on a journey to rediscover myself, to live happily and chase my dreams.

Alright, enough about those stuff.

So, what inspired me to design this blog template?

WKE 6683!

In case you didn't know, I was involved in my first ever road accident despite my pro driving skills. And NO it wasn't my fault. We do see a lot of road objects in black and yellow and I guess that accident reminded me of those colours which I used a lot in this blog. Well, there was quite a lot of drama that night (25th September 09) so I guess I'll tell you everything about it in another post. Until then, #$%@&?#%@$#%@$@%#$ WKE 6683!

Well, college is reopening tomorrow and I don't look like I'm prepared. I didn't study throughout the holidays. I didn't shave for 4 days and I think I look like a Japanese now.

=O

Nevertheless, I will continue to live through my final days in TCSH. I will prepare for my AS exams although I know they won't benefit me. I am very confident in switching to ADP (American Degree Transfer Program). In one way, it saves a lot of money and time. Let's put it in a simple equation:

2 years (M'sia)= RM 50k
+
2 years (USA)= RM 140k - RM 350k (really good Uni)

TOTAL = Max RM 400k and 4 years

compared to

Another semester doing CAL (half a year) = RM 10k
+
4 years (USA)= RM 600k - RM 800k (if we're looking at pretty good Unis)
TOTAL =

Well, my dad said if I were to switch courses, he wants me to do the ADP. So I guess I'll most probably switch by January 2010.

I'm feeling happier recently...to the extent that I found the road accident a pretty fun experience. Oh, Nyin Hui was with me that time. Oops! *Spoilers*

I will definitely write about that day's incident. Until then, Live Your Life!

P.S. I think I'm very serious about dancing. =)

KJ.
L.O.L